SO LONG............I'M BACK

Wow, it's a long time since the last blog I wrote. I've been through a lot of troubles, so of course there are so many many things I can show here.
First of all, I've taken the final test to graduate for 1 month. It's such an stressful time I've ever suffered.
I've been spent almost a week at Vung Tau at my cousin's house, it's not reaaly a vacation like people think. I had a very interesting moment with my secondary school boy friend. It's a little bit romantic.
Second, I did have a lot of dreams which I hoped a lot. But now everything seems to be vague, I'm really bored. All dreams collapsed. I'm wondering why everyone always wants me to do the way they think good. They always force me to do everything like their thought. It's really a big shock for me. Mom wanted me to settle in DL and my bro did, too. Our bloody relationship between us will be nothing if I do everthing my way.
Third, What I call Love seems to be a soap ball. We broke up, our love is over now. I'm in happy mood and bad mood at the same time. I'm happy becaue it's time to come back with my friend, my family. But I'm sad because I'm afraid that that guy will hurt alot. How can I do? I just want to end that hopeless love as soon as possiple.
Somtimes Life is very tough, I like the way my friend uses to solve problem: Lead a busy life to kick all away.

Tớ xin lỗi (SORRY ABOUT THAT)

For Tomorrow

    

Today may be a special day to everyone because today is DOUBLE FIVE FESTIVAL (on 5th day of 5th of lunar month) but It is very normal to me.

     I'm trying my best to get more knowledge for my coming Toeic test. I have refused my friend's invitation to join a small party. The reason I gave out is my study business but there is a reason very special which I can't explain. It is my secret for ever.

     I'd rather suffer something to advance in my future than become furious with anyone (maybe it is not my friend) and stupid reasons.

     I will never give up, I'm sure.

Nỗi đau ngự trị (The reign of pain)

Nhiều lần em cố nhìn vào mắt anh, long lanh hờn ghen giấu kín

(I try to look into your eyes so many times with the hidden jealousy) 

Dù em đã cố nắm tay

níu anh,

(Although I try to hold your hands tight,

cling onto you)

Mong manh tình yêu chẳng thấy

(Our Love seems to be fragile)

Hãy cho em đến gần

một chút thôi,

(Close to me just a second, please)

Quanh đây màn sương kín lối
(It is covered with the darkness and fog around me)

Đừng chạy  đi (xa) như gió kia

thoáng qua,

(Don't love me like a waft of wind)

Bơ vơ một cánh đồng chiều
(Leave me alone on the desolate field)

(oh oh oh oh oh oh

oh oh oh oh oh

oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh)*2

Dẫu cho anh phải đi, cách xa em cả phương trời

(Even if you gotta go far away from me)

Nhưng điều gì làm cho trái tim của em yêu không hề thay đổi?

(I can't figure out when does my love end?)

Có lẽ em chỉ mong nỗi đau thay giấc mơ

(I just wish not to face up to reality)

Cũng chính lý do khiến em rất yêu anh

(I love you because of visible reasons)

Bởi khi trong tình yêu, những ngây ngô niềm vui nào
(Because Love brings us a lot of joy and happiness)

Dẫu thật nhiều rồi cũng sẽ quên rất nhanh vô tư mà tan biến

(But Happiness is so fragile that it can be erased easily and vanish into the air)

Chính khi trong niềm đau, khiến cho em cố quên

(It is the pain and the sorrow which force me to forget everything)

Mới biết trái tim này đã yêu rất nhiều

(But it's time I realized that I love you from the bottom of my heart)

Family

I'm so lucky to live under one roof with all members of my family. Sometimes I have doubts about their love for me but I'm shamed by how selfish I think about my beloveds immediately after. They sacrifice for me a lot and I'm becoming their burden. Shame on me!
There are many many obstacles I have to get over on my path. I really need their help and support. They pin all their hopes on me. So if I fail, I'll let them down and make them disappointed a lot.
Now I just know the best way to make my precious family happy is trying my best. GO GIRL!

How to control myself?

I am going to have an English listening test in 2 days but I have no passion for it. How can I manage?
Although I know I must do everything myself and step on my own foot without my parents' support in the future, and this future is coming, just in over 2 months, my plan is still making no headway.
I'm a foolish girl. Wish to control myself!.................................

SUJU

Have no ticket, I have still enjoyed almost their performances on a container. They are so awesome. SiWon, HeeChul, DongHae... Everybody screams because we are so excited. I can't believe, I think I am dreaming but it is the truth.

Days off in boring rom

While they are eager to go home or travel somewhere on vacation, I'm spending all time in my room alone surfing internet or doing something to kill time. It's so boring!

Home is the students' destination whenever they feel lonely and boring. Home is the place where they want to shelter when they are in help except me.

I must suffer all sorrows alone and handle everything myself  because home is far from me now. I hope to graduate soon to go home and live with my family happily. I really miss them, miss my parents, my brothers too much. In front of people I always prove to be firm but my tears drop easily when I'm alone.

Because of my parents, I always try my best to live happily.

I bitterly resent what he said. He is such a goody-goody. I never forget what he said and how he treated me. He wants to isolate me from everyone and everything. It's now ok to me but I never surrender. I swear!

Summer comes

This morning, the weather is rather weird. It's raining slightly, stopped  then and the sun started shining. Now cicadas are singing their own songs on branches over there.  What beautiful songs! I recall the time when I was at high school. Miss my former classmates and my form teacher! Summer comes!

                 It's the season of flamboyant!

 

They are blossoming!

                                                                                                                                                                         

Ve Que Xua - Chi Tai, Viet Huong, Hoai Tam, Nguyen Huy - PBN95

This makes me miss my dad a lot! I love you so much, DADDY!

Đắc Kỷ Trụ Vương PBN 71 p1

Hash Hash Everything

When you feel that no one deserves to be trusted, what can you do?

It's really a big question to me because I'm in trouble. How can I handle everything I have encountered? Maybe I should be strong and calm down to solve my own problems.

Oh, my friend, I don't know why....... You  must have been sad a lot. I'm so sorry but I couldn't do anything better because I have feeling like you and anyone. You may be more tolerant than me and I become a mean person, for that matter.

I didn't feel relieved at all when I showed my glacial attitude towards you but I didn't feel glad, too.

So sorry, when I'm better I will phone you!

Darin - Darin | Album

Darin - Darin | Album

Blue birthday & happy-next-day

That day passed quickly. I never want to remember the moment of  my birthday anymore. I wish my brain could be cleared up and keep the moment of next day.
I didn't long for any big surprise, I just wanted to be received wishes from my friends and my family. But it seemed to be so ruthless to me. Is it that the more we expect, the more we feel depressed? Almost none of them remembered me. I was really upset!
Besides, I wasted a lot of tears on a person who made me become worse. I swear I never forget the way he treated me.
2 closest friends of mine who I really adore have forgotten my birthday for 2 times in succession while I always remember and send my wishes to them on their birthdays.  All I can say to them is nothing. They really let me down. It reminds me of a proverb that LONG ABSENT, SOON FORGOTTEN.

Next day, when  there was no hope that any miracle came to me, I felt alight with come-late happiness. My brother, my cousin, my friends sent messages to me and said they were sorry for their late wishes.
As for my close friends, I revealed how I had  felt about them. One of them was very regretful and wanted me to forgive her. As for me, I never have anything in my mind and I ready delete everything in the past if someone used to hurt me and now they realize their fault & treat me right.
I still love them as I did!

Tired

After handing my complete report to the teacher yesterday, I felt somewhat relieved. As a result, I award a day off to myself.

Today, I have spent all day watching movies and reading news. Now I can't see everything clearly because I have sat at the computer for a long time. My eyes are glued to the screen. It makes me really tired.

This early morning, I had a nightmare. That dream scared me a lot. I woke up in terror and wondered if I had done something wrong.

Yes, I have been suffering so many many worries.Although there are  some friends I can lean on or confide in but it's extremely hard for me.

My heart and my mind are tormented.

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Secret Garden - Nocturne

Who I am

People still go on with their life even if I stop. The earth keeps going around the sun and time flies if something happens.


It means that I will live a boring life if I don't know how to enrich my life. It is synonymous with living a useful life. I thought about suicide when I encountered obstacles sometimes. It is really a stupid way to solve problem. Now I realize that people who know their own goals will be respected and appreciate.


I don't want anyone take pity on me, I will try my best to achieve my goals.
Trouble is a friend - Lenka

He died, anyhow.

        It is what my cousin said about her grandpa's death. It sounds a little bit funny but I think she shouldn't have spoken like that because he is her grandfather anyway.

        

        My mom has just phoned and informed me about the funeral of my aunt's father-in-law. His granddaughter arrived in Hanoi this morning but she made a halt at my uncle's house before going home. "Have lunch and take a nap before come home, niece" said my uncle. But she had slept until 4 pm (She could have stayed at home at that time if she had departed after a 30-minute-nap). She said that her grandpa had died no matter how fast she was.

       She said the truth but her spoken word was not suitable for that situation.

     

       I still remember when my grandmother passed away, my parents tried to conceal me (I'm living and studying far from my family over 1000 kilometers). But one of my friend informed me and I looked so mournful and cried a lot. My grandma's death is a big loss for my family and my kin.

May my grandma as well as my cousin' grandpa rest in peace!

When you're gone - Avril Lavigne

Family

In human context, a family (from Latin: familiare) is a group of people affiliated by consanguinity, affinity, or co-residence. In most societies it is the principal institution for the socialization of children. Extended from the human "family unit" by biological-cultural affinity, marriage, economy, culture, tradition, honor, and friendshipinclusive extending to community, village, city, region, nationhood, global village and humanism. A family group consisting of a father, mother and their children is called a nuclear family. This term can be contrasted with an extended family. are concepts of family that are physical and metaphorical, or that grow increasingly
There are also concepts of family that break with tradition within particular societies, or those that are transplanted via migration to flourish or else cease within their new societies. As a unit of socialization and a basic institution key to the structure of society, the family is the object of analysis for sociologists of the family. Genealogy is a field which aims to trace family lineages through history. In science, the term "family" has come to be used as a means to classify groups of objects as being closely and exclusively related. In the study of animals it has been found that many species form groups that have similarities to human "family"—often called "packs."

Come back to class

After having suffered from Scarlet fever for 4 days, now I feel better. Whole my body was covered with pinkish-red spots some days ago. I looked so terrible and ugly. When I was ill, there were a lot of people who cared about me. My parents called me to ensure that I was getting better, my friends visited me everyday. That made me very happy and smile a lot even though I was having an itching sensation.

Nocturne - Secret Garden

My brother was worrying about me, too. He phoned me yesterday and blamed me why I didn't let him know my illness. I realize that although I'm living alone far from my family, I'm not a solitary.

Today I can come back to class and go on my study. Such a beautiful day!

Super Junior

A Korean Boy band Suju is going to Vietnam. I'm so excited hearing this news. Although all members of  SuJu are handsome on TV, I wonder how they are in real person. Their voice may be not perfect but their moves are great and wonderful!

Super Junior

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t_VxL78sHnM 

Wait till the day...

Wake up with tired feeling, a new day started but I don't feel refresh. The image of my old friend is still obsessing me. He has appeared in my dreams for some times. I don't know what it means. The more I feel tired, the more I miss him. I hope that I will see him someday and say to him that I never forget him and always want him to forgive me.
Best wishes come to my friend!

Appologize 

Isolation

It's about 4 years since I came here where I always want to forget and threw everything into nothing-less. Except home, nowhere makes me relieve. Someone will say it's obvious and undeniable but I still wanna confirm that truth.
" Isolation, it's not good for me" - The lyric of  "Lemon Tree" song sometimes reminds me but I can't make up my mind that what to do to make my life better. My friends can be counted on the fingers of one hand. They are really good to me but they can be by my side every time I'm in need.
I must sacrifice something for my future. It is all I can say to comfort myself. I face my neighbors everyday without greetings, if they say "Hello" or " Good morning!"... I just reply with a smile. I know obviously it's my fault but I can do nothing because of my unrevealed reason.
I'm living and going against common sense. Why? Why must I do that? If you love someone, you want to be near them and lean on them but if I do that I will hurt them. It means that I must avoid my beloved as far as possible. Although my neighbors will look down on me because of my rude behavior, from the bottom of my heart I want to say sorry to them.
ISOLATION is like a BIG CAGE which I really want to break but I have to find the best way to do to avoid hurting my beloveds.

Lemon Tree