SO LONG............I'M BACK

Wow, it's a long time since the last blog I wrote. I've been through a lot of troubles, so of course there are so many many things I can show here.
First of all, I've taken the final test to graduate for 1 month. It's such an stressful time I've ever suffered.
I've been spent almost a week at Vung Tau at my cousin's house, it's not reaaly a vacation like people think. I had a very interesting moment with my secondary school boy friend. It's a little bit romantic.
Second, I did have a lot of dreams which I hoped a lot. But now everything seems to be vague, I'm really bored. All dreams collapsed. I'm wondering why everyone always wants me to do the way they think good. They always force me to do everything like their thought. It's really a big shock for me. Mom wanted me to settle in DL and my bro did, too. Our bloody relationship between us will be nothing if I do everthing my way.
Third, What I call Love seems to be a soap ball. We broke up, our love is over now. I'm in happy mood and bad mood at the same time. I'm happy becaue it's time to come back with my friend, my family. But I'm sad because I'm afraid that that guy will hurt alot. How can I do? I just want to end that hopeless love as soon as possiple.
Somtimes Life is very tough, I like the way my friend uses to solve problem: Lead a busy life to kick all away.

Tớ xin lỗi (SORRY ABOUT THAT)

For Tomorrow

    

Today may be a special day to everyone because today is DOUBLE FIVE FESTIVAL (on 5th day of 5th of lunar month) but It is very normal to me.

     I'm trying my best to get more knowledge for my coming Toeic test. I have refused my friend's invitation to join a small party. The reason I gave out is my study business but there is a reason very special which I can't explain. It is my secret for ever.

     I'd rather suffer something to advance in my future than become furious with anyone (maybe it is not my friend) and stupid reasons.

     I will never give up, I'm sure.

Nỗi đau ngự trị (The reign of pain)

Nhiều lần em cố nhìn vào mắt anh, long lanh hờn ghen giấu kín

(I try to look into your eyes so many times with the hidden jealousy) 

Dù em đã cố nắm tay

níu anh,

(Although I try to hold your hands tight,

cling onto you)

Mong manh tình yêu chẳng thấy

(Our Love seems to be fragile)

Hãy cho em đến gần

một chút thôi,

(Close to me just a second, please)

Quanh đây màn sương kín lối
(It is covered with the darkness and fog around me)

Đừng chạy  đi (xa) như gió kia

thoáng qua,

(Don't love me like a waft of wind)

Bơ vơ một cánh đồng chiều
(Leave me alone on the desolate field)

(oh oh oh oh oh oh

oh oh oh oh oh

oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh)*2

Dẫu cho anh phải đi, cách xa em cả phương trời

(Even if you gotta go far away from me)

Nhưng điều gì làm cho trái tim của em yêu không hề thay đổi?

(I can't figure out when does my love end?)

Có lẽ em chỉ mong nỗi đau thay giấc mơ

(I just wish not to face up to reality)

Cũng chính lý do khiến em rất yêu anh

(I love you because of visible reasons)

Bởi khi trong tình yêu, những ngây ngô niềm vui nào
(Because Love brings us a lot of joy and happiness)

Dẫu thật nhiều rồi cũng sẽ quên rất nhanh vô tư mà tan biến

(But Happiness is so fragile that it can be erased easily and vanish into the air)

Chính khi trong niềm đau, khiến cho em cố quên

(It is the pain and the sorrow which force me to forget everything)

Mới biết trái tim này đã yêu rất nhiều

(But it's time I realized that I love you from the bottom of my heart)

Family

I'm so lucky to live under one roof with all members of my family. Sometimes I have doubts about their love for me but I'm shamed by how selfish I think about my beloveds immediately after. They sacrifice for me a lot and I'm becoming their burden. Shame on me!
There are many many obstacles I have to get over on my path. I really need their help and support. They pin all their hopes on me. So if I fail, I'll let them down and make them disappointed a lot.
Now I just know the best way to make my precious family happy is trying my best. GO GIRL!

How to control myself?

I am going to have an English listening test in 2 days but I have no passion for it. How can I manage?
Although I know I must do everything myself and step on my own foot without my parents' support in the future, and this future is coming, just in over 2 months, my plan is still making no headway.
I'm a foolish girl. Wish to control myself!.................................

SUJU

Have no ticket, I have still enjoyed almost their performances on a container. They are so awesome. SiWon, HeeChul, DongHae... Everybody screams because we are so excited. I can't believe, I think I am dreaming but it is the truth.